Day 7

Distractions. 

I distract myself everyday. I try to divert my focus from my mom to myself. I've been deepening my passion for art for the past few days. I think i've gone attached to it. I'm improving each day. Although, today, i've realized that no matter how much I try avoiding our problem, it keeps coming back. 

So, I guess, no one can run away from one's problem. Everyone needs to stand up and deal with it. 

Day 6

No calls. No texts. Nothing. 

Wow. Our mom doesn't even bothers to check up on us. I feel like she doesn't care about us anymore. I received to message from her for past days. She's just doing it all over again. She's veering away from us slowly. But this time, I have a feeling that she is going to let us out of her life for good. Wow. It's like we nver shared anything for the past years. It's as if she's not my mom. Wow. Ugh. I really hate this feeling. I might wake up one day hating my mom but I don't want that. Huhu. Hay. Oh well. Life goes on. 

Day 5

Hardships either bring out the best in you or destroy you. 

My dad's amazing. Today, we visited three churches (the last one is actually a chapel). Dad encouraged us to do this. Temptations are actually pulling me away to not do it but I tried to fight it for my dad and, also, for myself. My dad became a whole lot better person. He's convincing us go back in the arms of God. Don't get us wrong. We do attend mass and pray but I know that in my heart that I don't do most of it sincerely. So, I'm really glad we did it. And hopefully, We will do it again next time but with our mom by our side. 

Day 4

Being with a person for countless years, doesn't mean you know them really well. People can hide their true selves or pretend to be a different person. People can also change from that person you know to a complete stranger. I guess this is what I got from my 'situation'. I've got to accept this fact. It's hard but I'll try.

Day 3

Time is all one needs.

It heals people. I still don't know how but I am going to figure it out.

I'm still confused about everything though I've already figured out some parts. But that's like 1 out of a hundred other unanswered questions roaming around my mind.

Day 1

I needed to get my mind off of "things" and I guess this might be the best way. I think. Oh, who am I kidding. I really don't know how to write something on blogs. I suck at this but I'm doing it anyway. Oh my God. I feel like I'm talking to myself. Wow. Haha.

Anyway, so the whole reason why I made this is to just rant how AMAZING (not) my life is. It's hard for me to express what I feel to people close to me. I just can't say anything and end up being quiet.

So, today is my blog's first day. yay (fake excited smile)

I want to share to you my situation. (Any psychiatrists in the house? no? no) so here it goes...

My family's going through something for two weeks now. My mom left us. It's both of my parents fault. 

My dad's sort of controlling but he never hurt my mom physically. He thinks he's always right which is insane. I hate that attitude and I hope I didn't get that one from him. And he's this and that. Bla bla. He's just annoying sometimes. 

My mom's the quiet type. She left us. But she still keeps on insisting that she loves us. Wow. Why, then, did you leave us? She keeps on telling me that it is because of my dad. Her love for my dad was gone. It was gone because of his attitude. But I'll tell you a secret. I don't think it is just because of my dad. My mom had been seeing another guy for God knows how many months. She keeps on denying it and saying he is just a friend. Wow. I can't believe her. 

Yeah so this has been my life for two weeks now and It would probably continue for the rest of my life.